Crisis hit tonight. A student in my grade from last year committed suicide. Of course it affected all the students who already have problems so since 5pm I've been being support.
I'm thinking I want to be a crisis counselor. I'm really thinking of it. But after tonight, I have a few doubts.
Anyways, I'm drinking root beer and I might watch a cartoon before I go to sleep.
Well, I'm still at Milo. Had the longest night in a long time last night. It seems like the night I was supposed to get off and didn't because the basketball players (and my fellow RA's) didn't get back until 9:30pm, so I decided to just work the rest of the night and then RA meeting went until 1am. Then I talked to Dan until 2am to just get everything out of my head and then I ate pizza after midnight, and Dan warned me, and I had a bad dream. Not really a nightmare, just too exciting a dream for how tired I was and kind of depressing. I can't remember it now though. Thank God. Anyways, I'm just like, blah. But I get tonight off so that's good.
I've decided I'm going into social work. I'm thinking maybe a crisis counselor. For some reason, I'm also thinking of being a pediatrician, but that's a totally different field. So I dunno.
I miss you all.
In fact it was a little bit frightenin'
everybody kung fu fightin'
(I still don't know how to trackback. Sorry Amancay)
Well, I'm at Dan's house. He's in the shower I'm just sitting here on the comp. I have to go back to school today. Yuck, I don't want to, but oh well.
Anyways, must go. Toodles.
Wowsers, it feels like a lot later than Wednesday. I am actually so happy to be back. I didn't think I was going to be, but I am. I'm loving it. Anyways, can't type long because I have RA meeting as soon as Juliana gets down here. (Amancay I am so sorry!!!! I was going to meet you at church and stuff and I just ended up driving home to pack and get ready to leave because I realized I didn't really have enough time. I am sooo sorry because I really wanted to see you. I'll try and come back on a weekend or something.)
Things are going kinda rough in some areas of life, but in others they're great. I feel like writing a story or something. I haven't written for so long. I need to play guitar too.
Anyways, gotta go. love ya'll.
2003
Be more organized than I am
Find who God wants me to be and who he's made me be already
Keep in touch with people better
Get more control of my money
Play more piano
guitar
bass
drums
and any other instrument I feel like learning
Save up enough money to get a new guitar
Show the people I love that I love them
Be more carefree
Care more about others
Excercise regularly
More than anything else work on my relationship with God
Work on my style ;) hehe
be able to easily carve in snowboarding
Let God lead me
Keep Dan and my relationship healthy and Christ-centered
be on FIRE
Choose a college
Get scholarships
Make Spiritual Disciplines something people want to come to
Stop judging
Be me
Today, is going to be busy, I believe. While doing laundry I'm going to go take a shower and then somehow get Danny's present to him and then possibly go see mom before she gets off work so she can tell me what we're doing. I get to go to P-town tonight and see Brittney.
I am dreadfully in need of someone or something that will alter my mood. I can tell-I'm at that point where I'm either going to be in a bad mood for the rest of the day or a good one. So maybe I'll go get a chai tea or something at the local coffee shop. I'm not sure.
Dan and I had a slight little tumble yesterday but it was fixed simultaneously. Well, maybe not that fast but it was fixed fast. He's snowboarding today. I hope he doesn't injure himself too bad.
Well, I do believe I'm going to go check on the laundry and then go take a shower and then go see my mom and then call Danny and see when I can give him my present and then maybe write something. I have not written anything in so long I'm not sure how I'm going to live much longer if I don't start writing and playing music again. It will kill me. I know it will. Besides, I need to write a list of new years resolutions anyway.
I get to go see Brittney, talk about major excitement.
Oh by the way, new e-mail address:
honeycombtoes@hotmail.com
too much spam on the other one.
Well, I think it's Thursday. Dan goes home tonight, :(, I might spend the night at Ashley Thomas'. I have a desperate desperate NEED to go see Brittney darling. I miss her so much and I want to give her the gift I bought her because I know she's going to love it. Or at least I hope so. (By the way, the movie "Big Trouble" is incredibly funny)
La la la. Oh my goodness!!!!! Brittney has made a wonderful new layout. I get so excited when Brittney darling makes a new layout.
Man, I was drinking coffee, a very not strong coffee and when I brough it away from my mouth it bounced up and splashed me in the nose and I got coffee up my nose and now it hurts a little bit.
I got to see a whole bunch of people yesterday, even if it was for a short time. We piled 5 of us into Dan's car. Dan has an '86 Chevy nova, I got shotgun, Dan drove, and Hans, Mathys, and Danny fit into the backseat (still have no idea how) it was hilarious. The car was so weighted down in the back because it was those 3 guys plus all of Dans climbing gear, snowboarding gear and the rest of his life packed in the back. We drove over to Dane's house and it was funny and he was quiet. Amazingly enough. He has the nicest house, my goodness.
I really want to make a new layout now. Brittney's has inspired me.
Well, Dan's looking rather bored so maybe I should take him to go do something. Anyways, g2g. God bless you all. Keep me in your prayers.
Christmas break is going wonderful although I want a whole lot more of time to sleep, goof off, see friends, and get one-on-one time with Dan. It really sucks because I'm in a "deep, find the real me, philosophical, who am I?" mood. But I don't have time. I'm too busy with other things. I'm eating mint kisses from Dan. (yay!) and I'm watching Big Trouble, very funny movie.
Well, I am tired so I'm going to go finish the movie and then go to sleep. g'night.
I miss you Brittney! I don't know when I'm going to be able to come see you but I definitely will before I leave. I promise.