forutarn: Don't say silly sorry so soon see you I will
angelscarmel: hahahahaha
forutarn: Say that five times fast
angelscarmel: You sound like Yoda
forutarn: hehe
angelscarmel: *imitatoes Yoda's voice* See you I will
orutarn: initatoes
forutarn: sorry just had to pick
forutarn: lol
angelscarmel: hahaha
angelscarmel: sorry
angelscarmel: imitates
angelscarmel: I was thinking of tomatoes
forutarn: tomatoes
forutarn: I make you think tomatoes
forutarn: hmmm
angelscarmel: lol, no, I was just thinking of tomatoes. I'm not sure why. I kind of feel like a tomatoe sandwich. Evne though I hate mayonaise I just feel like one
angelscarmel: lol
angelscarmel: *giggles*
forutarn: Tomatoe with cheese on toast with Pastrami. AHHHHHHH
forutarn: very good
angelscarmel: *sits and daydreams about it*
angelscarmel: man that sounds good
forutarn: I know
forutarn: I like Pastrami
forutarn: Spicy turkey
forutarn: mmmmmm......
angelscarmel: yummmmmmmm

The conversation's Dan and I have online are so funny. lol.

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Yay, Tor got me a present and I drove by you today Amancay and waved and waved and didn't think to honk the horn but if I had you wouldn't have heard it until after you passed and then you'd be wondering who in the world had honked at you. But yes I must come see you whether or not you have my present.

Legolas is hot!

SESLIE IS HERE!
and by the way that mature comment was pretty funny Seslie. hehehe.

Leaving for Cali tomorrow.....I think....... *ponders*

Orlando Bloom is hot. Oh yes, he is.

I love music. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

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And now it's time with Random thoughts with Tarnna. The part of life where Tarnna comes out, and gives, some random thoughts.

hehe

Well, Dan left for Bachelor last night. He called to make sure he got home alright, but I was out. It really sucked, he called at 12, I went to bed at 11. The phone was right next to me, and I was so tired I didn't even hear it ring. Everyone else was downstairs so they didn't hear it either. Grrrr.... Oh well. I hope he's down at the mountain having an awesome time. And not hurting himself. He's been looking forward to this like you wouldn't believe. He got a seasons pass for $200 and this is the first time he's gotten to go up. I hope he's not hurting himself.

It's so nice to be home. I don't have a car to drive, but it's alright. I don't mind sitting here doing nothing. I got a whole bunch of sleep last night and it was great.

I got Brittney's and Danny's Christmas presents. Danny's is really small and kinda pointless but I thought he'd like it. And Brittney's. Well, I know she'll like it. I just hope she's not mad that I opened it and played with it. That's horrible of me but I'd hope she'd do the same thing. lol.

I have no idea what I'm up today. It's so incredibly, wonderfully, AMAZINGLY nice to be home. Setting no example whatsoever. Goofing off. Sleeping. Being completely irresponsible. Telling people I'll be at church then realizing at 11am the next morning that I won't be because I have no car. I feel bad because that means I don't really get to see them, but it's nice and relaxing here at my moms house so I don't feel to bad.

I think I'm going to go. Food is beginning to sound very very good. And I'm starving. Yay. toodles.

I'm so happy I'm home. No one could ever describe the relief and sense of peace I feel now that I'm home. Or maybe it's now that I'm out of school. It's nice to not have to be responsible or anything. I mean, I still have to be, but I'm not so worried about what people are thinking of me and what kind of example I'm setting.

I stopped and saw Torsten today. He seemed exhausted. He's been home alone for close to a month now. Grrrrr, that makes me angry.

Dan's spending the night at my house tonight. Hehe, poor guy. He wants to stay up until I go to bed but he's so exhausted he can barely keep his eyes open. I can tell it's everything he can do. He's so sweet........

I should probably go to bed pretty soon. I have to get up and go to church and do special music for Sabbath School. Kinda scary. I'm not sure what I'm going to do yet. Maybe I'll just sing a Christmas song acapella. I dunno.

I miss Seslie. I e-mailed her at the two e-mail addresses I have for her and she hasnt' responded to either so I don't think she uses them anymore. They're probably floating off through oblivion.

I got to talk to Brittney Darling online tonight. That was exciting. And I got her Christmas present. That was just as exciting. I really hope she likes it. I got one for Danny too, but it's kind of small. lol. oh well. I'm sure he'll find some use for it. No idea what to get family for Christmas. One idea of what to get Dan, but I'm not sure. It's kind of practical and I want to get him something meaningful, not practical. I dunno, we'll see if my imagination spurs any imagionational thoughts. hehe.

Went and saw the Two Towers. It was amazing. I absolutely loved it. But of course I did, I love those types of movies and books and such.

I think I want a plant. A really spiffy one. That would be cool. Yes. it would.

I'm sitting here in my deans office watching Emperor's new Groove. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to be on the computer or not, but I am. I don't think she'd get mad so it's all good.

It's my night off. Thank God! Because I'm not sure I'd be able to handle this entire week without a night off. I'm going crazy, and I seem to be doing everything wrong. I really can't do anything right this week. Oh well. People will hate me anyways, so yah, oh well. I yelled at Dan when I wasn't even mad at him and it didn't really make any sense and I snapped at him more than just that once and so now he's trying to be very careful and I feel horrible because I want him to be comfortable with me and he's not. I don't know what to do. I just keep praying and trying to give it to God and hope and pray he works it out. Then, tonight I had a hall party and it's just turning out horrible because I'm so disorganized and we didn't get quite enough pizza and so now half my girls are pissed (and hungry) and I really hate being hungry so I now how they feel. I didn't even eat my piece of pizza because I didn't want anyone to not get a piece. So now I'm hungry and everyone else is hungry and I feel bad for making everything screw up and I have lots of homework and my goodness I'm screwing up.

I'm just waiting very impatiently for Thursday when I get to leave this place that really feels God-forsaken many times even though I know He's here. Even though I guess it's more like Forsaken-God. God is good though. And he's here, I can feel Him more often than not.

Today, I got a really nice hug. From Dan (*blushes*). But it was just a nice quick strong hug and he looked at me and said, "I love you" and it just made me feel so much better even though I'm doing everything wrong. It was really nice.

I'm going to go watch my movie now. I'm going to eat something at some point in time. Being alone in a dorm when I haven't been alone for so long is very nice. I love my girls and all, but still, every so often they wear me out.

Anyways, I love you all. I miss you Brittney. God bless.

I am now officially 18 years of age, + 2 days. More exciting than I thought it would be honestly. Although I can't really picture myself this old and I hate to think that in 363 days I'll be 19. Ah well, such is life. Must live it to the fullest.

Brittney commented on me! Although even more importantly she posted!!! On both sites!!!! Can you believe it??? Yay, that was the highlight of my day.

I've been in a rather good mood all day but it's slowly slipping away because I've had no one to be hyper with all day and I've been hyper all day and eventually when you're the one happy and holding everyone else up it gets old. I wish Brittney or Seslie were here darn it.

I have no money. Grr.. Oh well.

Daddy came down for my birthday with Bryce and they took Dan and I out to dinner and it was very exciting and I'm very happy. I got sleep last night and that was absolutely marvelous and I think I might attempt it again tonight. Or maybe not, maybe I'll stay up super late and wake up super late, oops, no can't do that. It's Friday tomorrow so that can't be done. Hmmm.....I don't know what I'll do. I might get caffeine anyways though. It's desperately needed at the moment.

I've been listening to Switchfoot again and I absolutely love it. *sigh* 'tis a wonderful thing indeed. I woke up to it this morning at 7:30 and drifted in and out of sleep and prayer until 8 when I got up and turned off my alarm and then Dan called so I'd meet him in the caf. and then I fell back asleep and had a scary dream I don't remember and since then have had a wonderful day because I'm just in a good mood when I get enough sleep and wake up to God. It's wonderful.

Anyways, I need to go. Dan and I are going on a privelege into Canyonville. Yay. It means good food. Which is always wonderful. I have to get Ayla food too. Ya know what? I love Ayla. I want to keep in touch with the majority of my classmates, but Ayla is one friend that I am going to put special effort into keeping touch with.

Speaking of which. I feel completely horrible. I need to get ahold of Seslie. I e-mailed her a long e-mail but she hasn't e-mailed back, I have no stamps and I just got money to get stamps and she has no website and every time I remember I need to call it's bad timing since she's in Michigan. Grrrrr!!!! I miss her so much! I need to think of what I'm going to do for her for Christmas. Brittney too. But it must be something fairly cheap since I am just a penniless miloite.

Anyways, toodles. love ya'll.

Had an absolutely wonderful day yesterday which ended in an incredible serious conversation and me not knowing what to do. Which is funny, I'm not sure why I'm worried because I never know what to do. hehe. I need to cheer Dan up, but I'm not sure how. I love him so much.

School is going alright. Today, I did a presentation and oh my goodness it was crazy. I was so nervous and I was so red the entire time. It lasted longer than it was supposed to though. Which is ok. I interviewed this girl who's had some problems before (my presentation was on suicide) and it was so good. She did awesome! I think it was really good. Even though I was nervous.

What was really funny this morning is that I went to bed at 2:30 and then I got up at 6am to do my presentation and Dan made me coffee and I never drink coffee so I was like super duper hyper and it was really funny because I hadn't been that hyper in a long time. Weeeeeeeee.....

I miss Brittney lots and I need to call her except I can't. I need to e-mail but I don't really have the time. Ah well, I shall make the time tomorrow or tonight. Dude, I have the coolest boyfriend. He's so hot and so sweet and I just love him lots.

I'm on a computer isn't that exciting. Wowsers. I have not much homework. I really want to watch Ice Age, that is an excellent movie. hehe.

Gotta go.

Have to leave today. Don't want to. Incredibly sad. Want to see Danny. Want to see Amancay. Want to see Torsten Hans Dane Aaron. Alas, I cannot.

Must go get ready. I have to call everyone and let them know we're leaving earlier. It's even sadder, I no longer get the car. Alas, I am sad. God bless.

Well, what do people think of my new layout? Nothing special, just a little change from the old to something a little new. I think I had Mt. Dew way too late in the afternoon. I haven't drank caffeine in so long I think I've forgotten the effect it has on me.

Dan and I had an excellent talk tonight. We just talked about regular things and then we talked about our physical boundaries. It was nice to decide on lines and such. Lines are good. Hard sometimes, but I'm trusting God to help me have the strength to not push the lines.

Talked to Dane for a little bit tonight. Didn't get to talk to Danny. I've been so exhausted I want to see people but I'm just so tired at the same time I just want to sit at home and be antisocial. I go back to school tomorrow. I don't think I'm going to be able to see anybody because my mom won't let me go to church because everytime I go I always hang out with friends afterwards. Pooh on that.

I miss Dan a lot. I'm kind of excited about going back to school, kind of not. There's only 2 or 3 weeks between now and the next homeleave. So that's good. I'll be 18 on the 10th. That's exciting. Even more exciting Dad's getting back on the 5th. Seslie turns 20 on the 21st.

I think I'm going to go to bed now. 'tis bed time it 'tis.